Mee Maw

While you're reading this, please don't think I'm having a pity party.  Just hang in there to the end, and you will see where I am headed here. . .

I lost my Dad when I was five years old.

Randy lost his dad only eight months before we met, in 1992.

Then I lost my mom when I was a freshman at UNC-Chapel Hill (go Heels!).

And all of this loss really hit home in January of 2003, when T. was born.

But someone, somewhere made this comment to me:

"Your children cannot miss what they never had."

At the time, I found great comfort in that statement, and I resolved that I would not spend so much of my time in regret, thinking of all the people my children should have known or would have known. 

They know who their grandparents are, and that they are in Heaven waiting to meet them, but no emphasis has ever been placed on the fact that they aren't here.

But this. . .

This is different. . .

Because this is someone that they HAVE known. . .

And loved. . .

And adored. . .

And cherished. . .

This is Mee Maw.

Randy's mom.

Our kids love her TO PIECES!!!!

We found out today that she has breast cancer.

Again.

And as much as I believe God when He says,

 "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God,

to them who are the called according to his purpose."

(Romans 8:28)

And as much as I put my trust in His word when it tells me in Psalm 103:3 that He has forgiven my iniquities and healed my diseases. . .

I still think of them. . .

And I know that someday, I will be telling them that their Mee Maw is waiting for them in Heaven as well. 

That's going to be tough.

But, God has taught me one thing better than anything else in this life. . .

"Take therefore no thought for the morrow:

for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself"

(Matthew 6:34)

And. . .

"Be careful for nothing:  but in every thing by prayer and supplication

with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts

and minds through Christ Jesus."

(Philippians 4:6-7)

So. . .

I think that, for now, I will enjoy watching my kids with her.

Reading books. . .

Working puzzles. . .

Talking about Jesus. . .

And I'll let God take care of tomorrow.