January 6, 2012

I Think God Checks E-Mail

I am the world's worst at not deleting e-mails after I read them.

And I am equally as bad to put off reading them, especially if I have an idea of what's in them.

So, today, once I had a chance to clean up some of my e-mails (from all the way back to October), something caught my eye that I couldn't shake.

Honestly, I think God changed my e-mail on me this morning, knowing I'd open it. . .maybe that's not what was there yesterday.

I love His sense of humor!

Anyway. . .

I get a daily devotional "letter" from Sheri Rose Shepherd.  If you aren't familiar with her and her writing, she writes her books as a series of "letters" to the reader from God.  They are so very powerful!

You can check her out at http://www.hisprincess.com/.

So, just as a little background. . .

I'm kind of in a rut lately.

Just blah.

Not really sad. . .but not exactly jumping with joy either. . .you know what I mean?

School is tough this year.  The kids are tough.  The parents are tough.  The rigor can be tough.  And the knowledge that next year holds LOTS of changes is especially tough.

I haven't been sleeping well.  I wake up every hour or two & have a very hard time falling back asleep.  And when I do manage to catch a few winks, I have these weird dreams, so I wake up exhausted.

And, on top of all of that, I just haven't felt well--lots of nausea and heartburn.  (And just for the record, no, I am not pregnant!!!)

So, anyway, this morning, I am sifting through the emails and find this letter:

"My Princess,

I want you to look for a true friend-not just any friend.  Find someone who brings out the best in you-a girlfriend who is a gift from Me.  My love, it takes time to build a strong foundation with a true friend, so choose your tools wisely.

The first tool you'll need is transparency. . .the ability to see within each other's heart--your strengths and weaknesses.

The next tool is truth.  I am the way, the truth, and the life for you.  You will discover the rewards of real friendships when you speak truth and bring refreshing words of encouragement to each other.

Finally, your friendship will need to be sealed in love, girded with trust, and encircled with prayer.  Remember, My princess, you must become the kind of friend you desire to have.

Love,
Your King and True Friend"

(from Sheri Rose Shepherd)

You know, this is something I think I have longed for my entire life through.  Every time I think God has sent someone my way, I end up being hurt, and so now I am hesitant to open myself to anyone.

These are the things that my heart longs for. . .

~~someone that I can depend on to listen without feeling guilty about calling on them.

~~someone that I know I could call on, regardless of the hour or day. . .not that I would, it's just a good feeling to know that you have someone like that in your life that you are certain wouldn't hang up on you!

~~someone that I could just be able to go to lunch with and hang out for an hour or so.  Just be myself.  No pressures to be "social" or "say the right thing."  Just. . .chill.

~~someone I know God has ordained especially for me.  That He put them in my path for a very specific purpose.

~~someone that I can share my fears with, and not worry that they will think I am nuts or out of my mind.  That, even when my fears don't make sense to me, my friend will listen and co-miserate, then kick me in the rear with some constructive criticism and help me along the way.

Guess I am asking for a lot, huh?

Sometimes I wonder if any such person really exists in this world (besides God Himself, mind you).

I mean, I am so blessed with a Heavenly Father who does everything I listed above and so much more for me. . .

. . .but. . .

. . .there's just this little part of me that would like that in a human form once in a while.

Please don't misunderstand~~

I have some awesome friends and some of the greatest Prayer Warriors you will ever meet. . .

But I am still praying that God will send me that one special person. . .

And I know that He hears my prayer. . .

2 comments :

Elaine said...

You know what's crazy? I could have written this post... I will pray for you...you can pray for me...and maybe God will answer us both! I love ya!

Kim said...

I think we all feel this way as women. I know I would like a friend too. That is why I am so glad we have each other as blogging sisters. Really saying what is in our hearts on our posts, and then our sisters responding back with such love. Lynn, I have never come out and said this to you before. I think you are great. You are so funny,talented and great to be around. I love you and I am your friend.